Lucid Moment

The moment I fell in love was the moment when logic and the sense of balance evaded the confines of my brain. I no longer am capable of deciphering what is just and what is rightfully mine as every breath and every movement I can muster is all but involuntary.

Love has been a poison I have not the strength to resist. A day becomes a thousand memories, a lifetime of surmountable joy infused by a daily suffering of pathological behavior.

Am I Ordinary?

What is ordinary? I wonder if I have the right to claim that I am just an ordinary person.

I have nothing achieved anything yet, i haven't really proven anything that's worth mentioning.

Damn Life!!!

4 years ago, I was single and I was sad. I should have nothing more to complain about now that I have found the love of my life, and yet here I am suffering with every little thing he does. I know i shouldn't be blaming him, after all I have signed up for this.

Every night, I pray. I pray that he would love me the way he did before. Every night I think about the things I can do to keep him. Sometimes, I feel that he has already drifted away and I am all alone in this relationship. It's hard when you are the only one who is in love because whether he does something or not, it will just hurt you.

When I was young, I always wondered why grown ups used to say that kids are lucky. I never thought that after 28 years I'll be jaded and would know how it feels to be a bitter grown up wishing that he goes back to be silly little boy. I've fallen in love so hard it is almost a sin.

Remind me what my brain is for again...

Ubuntu Madness

I recently installed Ubuntu on an old laptop which has windows XP originally and may I say that I am having a blast. Enriched with all the internet capabilities you could ask for and more, i began wondering why have I just now decided to take advantage of this marvelous operating system.

I am totally clueless about Linux but as early as now, I am enjoying its benefits. Thanks for a new found joy in computing. I now have the edge that I have so long been looking for.